Former New Zealand double World Cup winner and Racing 92 fly-half Dan Carter admits he still feels "pretty sick" having been charged with drink driving earlier this year.
Carter was pulled over by police near the Champs-Elysees in February and charged after testing almost twice the legal limit.
"I felt like I let a lot of people down and still feel pretty sick about it," Carter told the Devlin Radio Show in New Zealand.
"Even though I'm back driving now, I did my punishment and lost my license for five months. And it was a really challenging time for me and my family, I felt like I let a lot of people down but people make mistakes in their life. The most important thing is that you learn from it."
Carter was booed on his return to action with Racing 92 after the incident and with Springbok fly-half Pat Lambie joining the Paris club, he looks set to make his exit from the Top14 when his contract comes to an end this summer.
The 35-year-old insisted it is something that will stay with him and revealed he felt fortunate the repercussions didn't go beyond his licence suspension.
"It's not about the punishment that the judge gives you or the fine or anything like that, it's actually the potential consequences that really hit home for you. It actually made me feel sick and it makes me feel sick now, thinking and talking about it," Carter said.
"As much as I'd like to say I've moved on from it, it's something I'll have to live with for the rest of my life. I'm very fortunate that the consequences weren't a lot worse than they could have potentially been."
